I Know Now

posted 7 Mar 2013, 19:22 by C S Paul

I Know Now
By Michael Josephson

Tomorrow I turn 62. And it just doesn't feel right. It seems like yesterday when I was the young rebel with potential. I know I should say wise and soothing things, but despite upbeat rhetoric about the advantages of advanced age, it's really the pits to observe my body deteriorate and see how old my friends look. And I hate realizing how much I have forgotten.

But enough lamenting. (Or is it whining?) I may not be smarter, but I am wiser.

I know that everything changes—including me.

I know that my dad was right when he told me that "where there's a will there's a way."

I know it's really dumb to carry a grudge and really hard to give one up.

I know now that the things I like to do least are often the things that need to be done most.

I know it's easier to give advice than to take it.

And I know now that neither the intensity of my feelings nor the certainty of my convictions is any assurance that I'm right.

I know that until I translate my thoughts into actions, my great ideas and good intentions are like unlit candles.

I know kindness is more important than cleverness.

I know now that it's not a sin to have an unexpressed thought and that there really are things that are better left unsaid.

I know it's a lot easier to tear down than to build up.

And I know now that some people will just never like me.

I know that there's a big difference between what I have a right to do and what is right to do.

And I know now that whether I like it or not I'll keep getting older—until I don't. And that's a lot worse.